Circle

Well, well, well, why did I use "circle" as the title of this post?
Of course, by definition, a circle is a shape where there are no vertex. (this is according to me, I am not sure if it is accurate definition of circle.)

But that is not the reason why I chose it, of course I won't write a blog just because of a shape. My language is not that good until I can do that yet. So, enough with the crap, the reason is because I think it is ironic how things work out. Just like a circle, you will be doing things that happened to you. Or something like that, let me explain.

So, it has been around 3months since I am in Sydney. Before coming here, I got the attitude of "ya, it's okay, I don't worry, so you don't need to worry as well" This is because my aunts and cousins were very worried and always remind me of this and that. I was like "ya ya, I know I know. Okay Okay." I don't know why they are so worried and tell me so many things to be careful of and stuff..

But, as I said, ironically, now the same things had happened to me. I found out that my cousin and sister are going to study in UTAR in Kampar. Since this is the first time that two girls leave home, so I was like remember to bring this, be careful of that, check this and so on to them. I did not know why I said all that to them also but it just seems the right thing to do.

I msn with them when I told them all those stuff. So when I was typing, I was "Oh My! I am doing what my cousin did" and I was laughing while typing. I just can't believe how ironic life is. It really is like a circle, I never thought I will do the worrying and yet I did. Haha.

Okay, I think you might be bored with my writing thus I am ending this.
Well, maybe because I forgotten what else to write. Haha. Well, this post waas schedule on the 19th and I postpone it to today because of my stupid assignment which I really hope is good enough so that I can pass the course. I have no intention of repeating that stupid course any time soon.

So, this is the end of this post as I need to get my rest now. Thanks for reading.

Life 2

Well, why is it called "Life 2" ?? This is simply because that I had a previous blog title "Life", therefore this is another version of it so it is called "Life 2". Haha. Simple isn't it?

So, my story starts the day before yesterday, or should I say yesterday in the wee hours. Well, as you might have know, I am a lazy person. I left my tutorial homework till to the last minute. So, it was 1am and I just started doing my tutorial homework which is 3pm that day.  I spend about 3hours doing that thing and end up going to bed at 4am. I slept for like about 6hours and I woke at 10am, because I had a lecture at 11am. So, I woke, I made my sandwiches, which is my lunch and I took a bath.

I was just in time for my lecture and everything turns out quite fine, until I heard someone beside me discussing about results of an earlier calculus test and I thought, "Oh My!, they got such high marks and I just passed my test." That made me quite sad for a while, but then it is still okay, as I did not put much effort in it, so I am suppose to get such marks for my work. The worst thing is, I found out I did the wrong tutorial homework.  I did next week's homework instead of last week's. SHIT!! I waste my sleep for doing the wrong homework!! And then, something worse than that is, my tutor happen to be collecting for both weeks, last week and this week. (Note: Because last week was Easter Holiday, no class was held, but I do not know which GENIUS designed my Management course to have homework assigned to that week.)  GREAT!! Just Great I thought, I lost 0.5marks for failing to pass up my homework for that week.

Well, what can I say? Ces't La Vie

Life

Well, so here I am, getting an hour or two with my housemates in the dinning room.. Well, at first the topic was like oh this oh that, a lot of nonsense, but then the topic get a little serious, did I say little? I mean a lot.. Haha.. So, here is my conclusion of the discussion which I took the passive part..

The rich people will always continue to dominate over the poor as my Economics lecturer in IICP, Miss Sara Seah always says, "The rich become richer and the poor become poorer." Well, this is a fact! The cruel reality of this very world we live in. Everything is about money and this is now affecting our lives greatly. The young people are not going to have babies as babies are not economically good for them. Yes! Babies cost a fortune! That is why the growth rate for most developed or developing countries are dropping. So, maybe in a decade or so, you might not even can spot a youngster riding their cute little four-wheel bicycle on the playground. Imagine that!

What can I say? This is reality! And movies are almost always a lie! The world is not always as beautiful as it seems, it always has a darker side with it. But, I think this is life. You give, you give, you give and maybe take some, then you are returned to the earth in how many decades? 8 can be consider quite good and those living till they are 90 are amazing. So, what to do with the remaining time you have left is in your hands. You are the one managing your future. Although this may seem optimistic, yet sometimes reality does not work this way. You need extra help, you need LUCK! Yes! Luck! You need it because sometimes, no matter how hard you try to improve your life, it may still be the same. Only those blessed can really change their life around, from the poor to the rich, and how do they do that? If this question is in the 70s or 80s and even the 90s I can confidently tell you, it was their effort. But now, effort does not equal success and fortunes anymore. The equation has now become more complicated. Now, we need luck on our side to help us, to make our path to fortune available. So, how can we change our poor life? Without the correct amount of effort and luck, I don't think that is possible now.

Yes, cruelty of the modern life. It is shocking yet true. Think about it. The future is in your hands, yet you can't deny it will help a lot to have Lady Luck on your side. But still, I am not encouraging to depend all on luck, we must have the correct equation. So, have you found it yet? Please share it with me if you have found it, but I doubt you will. Why? Well, this is LIFE !!

P.S: Sorry, I have to cut it short, I have a lot of nonsense left in my head, waiting for me to pull it out, yet I am quite sleepy now and my stomach is getting hungry and I need to wake up early for tomorrow. So, that is all for now. Please wait for another day when I will be inspired by some topic so I can pour everything out. Till then, bye.

TRIAL EXAM

Well, my Trial Exam is in 5 days and I still haven't study yet.
I don't have the mood for study, my mind is full of other things.
How I love to be dead right now, then all the worries and problems will be gone,
YET!
If I'm dead, then I created problems for my family. So,
Here I am,
Still walking and breathing and writing blog where I am suppose to be studying.
But, what can I do?
I don't really have the mood for studying, I just don't have.
So, please ensure that
my trials will come out just fine
or,
If I am dead by then.
Thanks for wasting your time reading.

Life

So, let me ask you a question,

What is the reason that you are still alive?

I do not know about what the reason might be for you, but
For me, and maybe just a small number of people in the world, the reason is,

Because of my parents and family.

Yes, I am still living my life because of my parents and my family.
Why? You might ask.
Well, this is because they brought me to this world, love me and I have not repay them.
If I end my life, they will be miserable, sad, therefore, I am still breathing.
This is the main and only reason I am still living, as I have nothing to look for in the future.

I have foreseen my own future which will be hard as it will ever be.
Why and How I know that?
Well, I cannot tell you why, as there is too much at stake. I cannot bear the pressure of letting another soul to know, it is just too risky.
How I know? Well, when I know why, I soon know that my life will be harder and harder everyday. This will be a fact, yet I cannot give anymore information then I already do, or everything I been trying to hide will be exposed. This is as far as I am willing to spill, so please do not ask me anything more. I will not say anything.

So, know you know why I am still alive, as you might notice, my reason is not a strong one, as once my family is well, on their way to heaven, maybe I will join them, even though it is not my time yet. However, you may also notice that I am a very responsible son, I live for my parents and family, I cannot end my life when I know they will be very devastated with my departure. I care for them and do not want them to be sad of my doings. Therefore, here I am, still breathing in this world.

No matter how hard my future life will be, I will still have to keep on living. Yet I will avoid thinking of my problems instead of solving them as there are no possible ways that I can think of that will solve the problem. Therefore, as I like to say,

Life Goes On..