Goodbye 2009?

Should I say goodbye?
But I don't want to say goodbye yet, there are so many things that make me don't want to leave it.
It had been such a nice year for me, although I left my high school friends and start in a place where I don't really familiar with. Yet as time goes by and I got along with all my friends at school, things turn out to be quite fun! I like my Hostel Gang! We're COOL !
Haha. Its so sad that those days had to end so quickly, why does happy days seem shorter?
The days we spend together, last minute studying for exams, preparing for presentation, coping reports, haha, having lunch and dinner together, and don't forget the countless DOTA rounds, and sometimes even baths together. (at the same time) Haha. Kind of miss those days.

And 2010, with so many uncertainty, so many unknown things that are waiting to happen. Leaving my friends, all gone to different places, pursuing a course that I don't know if I am capable of, in a far far away place, (actually it is just a 10hour flight, but that IS far.)

Do I look forward to 2010? Of course not! I hope time can stop at 2009, but time waits for no one, so no matter how badly I am not wanting 2010 to come, yet it has came. Here goes to a new year, I just hope everything will turn out to be fine as I don't think I can afford to breakdown in a place I am not familiar with, without the company of family and friends.

Happy New Year.

Results

Well, my results are out and once again I am not satisfied with it as it is not as good as I hoped it would be. Yet what do I expect when I did not give my fullest to prepare for the exam and always hope that a miracle would happen, that luck would be on my side. Well, I can say bye bye to my course as I did not reach the required ATAR, although I can use another pathway to reach my goal but I am not sure if I want to go that way. It all depends on the universities now whether to accept me or not, so I will leave it to them. I am just dropping by to say how sad and regret I felt, yet I think I will repeat this part again in future as this is how I am, so until I am awaken myself fully and take the initiative to change myself, I will be sure that I will write something like this. Haha.
So, keeping my fingers cross that I will really work hard for my degree, whatever degree that might be..

Note to God

If I wrote a note to God

I would speak whats in my soul

I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away,

For love to overflow

If I wrote a note to God

I'd pour my heart out on each page

I'd ask for war to end

And For peace to mend this world

I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love cause love is over due

And it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God

I'd say please help us find our way

End all the bitterness, put some tenderness in our hearts

And I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love cause love is over due

And it looks like we haven't got a clue

Need some help from you

Grant us the faith to carry on

Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone

Cause it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

No, no no

We can't do it on our own

So, so

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love cause love is over due

And it looks like we haven't got a clue

Need some help

Grant us the faith to carry on

Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone

Cause it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

No, no no

We can’t do it on our own

So, so

If I wrote a note to God

Oh My God! This song caught my eyes, (or maybe ears) when i first saw (listen) it on Astro. It is on Oprah show and I heard this song. Oh My God! The girl who sang this song really looks like she meant it. She really sang it with all the feelings in it. That is why I loved it. Charice is her name but I think this song is from JoJo. Please, if any of you are reading this, please listen to the song.

the video from Youtube

ANGRY

Shit!! I am so angry right now!!
Reason? I am not sure. My mood had been swinging up and down for some time now..
You see, I am cooling down now and it has only been a few minutes ago that I am very angry. Haha.. Crazy.
Whatever, my mood is coming back. I better stop writing or I will write something that I will regret reading later.

Sorry

I made a promise, and I broke it.
I am incapable of doing anything to make up for it.
So all I can say is,
SORRY.

P.S: This is just so I will remember what I did in the past.

12 December 2009

Haha, just thought of writing this out as I am bored.
Looking forward to that day. Although some people attending that event had change their views on the event, yet I am still looking forward to it.
Just hope that another event which I think will ruin any event will not happen on this event as I think this maybe the last event we will spend together.
So, all the best!!
P.S: So looking forward to THE event. Haha.

IICP

Shit!! I miss IICP !! Or maybe I miss IICP Hostel Gang.
Haha. Well, YES ! I miss you guys. I am the kind of person who will only realize when things are gone. I regret I did not took enough picture to remember the days we share. What a waste! Well, this is me. So, here I am, saying out loud, that

I MISS MY HOSTEL GANG !!

Haha. Just posting something that I will surely have a laugh at when I read this in future. Crazy me.

Results

Okay, my results will be out in 2 weeks time, or to be more exact, 9days..
So, I am not sure I want to know my results so soon, as I have been disappointing myself since Form 4. So, I am not hoping much, just hoping it will be okay.

Talking to myself: What am I doing?? Posting something like this?? Well, don't ask me, as I myself also don't know the answer. Haha.

Until next time.