Goodbye 2009?

Should I say goodbye?
But I don't want to say goodbye yet, there are so many things that make me don't want to leave it.
It had been such a nice year for me, although I left my high school friends and start in a place where I don't really familiar with. Yet as time goes by and I got along with all my friends at school, things turn out to be quite fun! I like my Hostel Gang! We're COOL !
Haha. Its so sad that those days had to end so quickly, why does happy days seem shorter?
The days we spend together, last minute studying for exams, preparing for presentation, coping reports, haha, having lunch and dinner together, and don't forget the countless DOTA rounds, and sometimes even baths together. (at the same time) Haha. Kind of miss those days.

And 2010, with so many uncertainty, so many unknown things that are waiting to happen. Leaving my friends, all gone to different places, pursuing a course that I don't know if I am capable of, in a far far away place, (actually it is just a 10hour flight, but that IS far.)

Do I look forward to 2010? Of course not! I hope time can stop at 2009, but time waits for no one, so no matter how badly I am not wanting 2010 to come, yet it has came. Here goes to a new year, I just hope everything will turn out to be fine as I don't think I can afford to breakdown in a place I am not familiar with, without the company of family and friends.

Happy New Year.

Results

Well, my results are out and once again I am not satisfied with it as it is not as good as I hoped it would be. Yet what do I expect when I did not give my fullest to prepare for the exam and always hope that a miracle would happen, that luck would be on my side. Well, I can say bye bye to my course as I did not reach the required ATAR, although I can use another pathway to reach my goal but I am not sure if I want to go that way. It all depends on the universities now whether to accept me or not, so I will leave it to them. I am just dropping by to say how sad and regret I felt, yet I think I will repeat this part again in future as this is how I am, so until I am awaken myself fully and take the initiative to change myself, I will be sure that I will write something like this. Haha.
So, keeping my fingers cross that I will really work hard for my degree, whatever degree that might be..

Note to God

If I wrote a note to God

I would speak whats in my soul

I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away,

For love to overflow

If I wrote a note to God

I'd pour my heart out on each page

I'd ask for war to end

And For peace to mend this world

I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love cause love is over due

And it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God

I'd say please help us find our way

End all the bitterness, put some tenderness in our hearts

And I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love cause love is over due

And it looks like we haven't got a clue

Need some help from you

Grant us the faith to carry on

Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone

Cause it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

No, no no

We can't do it on our own

So, so

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love cause love is over due

And it looks like we haven't got a clue

Need some help

Grant us the faith to carry on

Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone

Cause it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

No, no no

We can’t do it on our own

So, so

If I wrote a note to God

Oh My God! This song caught my eyes, (or maybe ears) when i first saw (listen) it on Astro. It is on Oprah show and I heard this song. Oh My God! The girl who sang this song really looks like she meant it. She really sang it with all the feelings in it. That is why I loved it. Charice is her name but I think this song is from JoJo. Please, if any of you are reading this, please listen to the song.

the video from Youtube

ANGRY

Shit!! I am so angry right now!!
Reason? I am not sure. My mood had been swinging up and down for some time now..
You see, I am cooling down now and it has only been a few minutes ago that I am very angry. Haha.. Crazy.
Whatever, my mood is coming back. I better stop writing or I will write something that I will regret reading later.

Sorry

I made a promise, and I broke it.
I am incapable of doing anything to make up for it.
So all I can say is,
SORRY.

P.S: This is just so I will remember what I did in the past.

12 December 2009

Haha, just thought of writing this out as I am bored.
Looking forward to that day. Although some people attending that event had change their views on the event, yet I am still looking forward to it.
Just hope that another event which I think will ruin any event will not happen on this event as I think this maybe the last event we will spend together.
So, all the best!!
P.S: So looking forward to THE event. Haha.

IICP

Shit!! I miss IICP !! Or maybe I miss IICP Hostel Gang.
Haha. Well, YES ! I miss you guys. I am the kind of person who will only realize when things are gone. I regret I did not took enough picture to remember the days we share. What a waste! Well, this is me. So, here I am, saying out loud, that

I MISS MY HOSTEL GANG !!

Haha. Just posting something that I will surely have a laugh at when I read this in future. Crazy me.

Results

Okay, my results will be out in 2 weeks time, or to be more exact, 9days..
So, I am not sure I want to know my results so soon, as I have been disappointing myself since Form 4. So, I am not hoping much, just hoping it will be okay.

Talking to myself: What am I doing?? Posting something like this?? Well, don't ask me, as I myself also don't know the answer. Haha.

Until next time.

Lazy Me

Well, the title say most of what I am planing to say. I am lazy.
Haha.
I wanted to edit my blog background to make it not so boring.. but when I found out I can't just change the background without going through a lot of reading, I give up..
So, I am waiting for a day when I get very bored and enthusiastic about blogging then that is when I will change the background.. So please wait very very patiently for that day.. although I doubt it will be anytime soon..
Haha..
Off to gaming now. See you.

我爱他

我爱他

他的镜框留在 某一节车厢
地下铁里的风 比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾 是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪 都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他 相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心 深深伤过却不会忘
我和他 不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白
该怎么去爱
我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他 相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心 深深伤过却不会忘
我和他 不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
我奔腾的眼泪 都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

New song by 丁当 and I love the song...

Highly recommended..

hehe..

Goodbye

Goodbye my friends,
though we may not like it,
yet there is nothing much we can do about it.
A short 10 month course,
yet I only knew you for the most 8months,
how regret that I didn't know you earlier,
then we can have 10 months of memories,
but what is in the past is in the past,
I can't ask for anything more,
just hope that we will remember the times we had together,
struggling to finish countless reports,
mind spinning during last minute exam preparations,
playing games after games on our laptops,
eating at the not so cheap canteen,
taking supper together at 211,
and don't forget the birthdays that we celebrate together,
All those, and many others, are still fresh in my mind,
bound to be remembered, I hoped, forever.
Yet memory is an odd thing,
sometimes the more you want to remember it,
the easier you will forget it,
so the only thing that I regret most now is,
that we didn't took as much photo as possible during all those memorable events,
to help strengthen our memory,
so that we can still relate ourselves to each other,
so that we can still remember the laughter that we shared,
so that we, know we once had spend time together, as friends.

Well, what can we do?
Reality is cruel.
We have to part and go our separate ways now,
As this is a step of life.
So my friends,
I wish you all,
May you all have the brightest future,
and sometimes when you're free,
please think about we,
and that is enough for me.

Dead..

I have to say goodbye to my results already, as I don't think I did as well as I hoped I can do, or maybe is better that I say I didn't study and prepare for it at my best. I just linger around and hope for a miracle to happen, and every time after the exam, I end up being sad as I know I didn't did well for it, yet this is just for a few days, after that, it is me again, back as normal. Sigh! I so hate myself for allowing myself to be like this. I have the potential to do better, yet I didn't push myself and give the fullest. I hate myself! Why am I like this? When can I change? When will I change? I myself have no answer. I am lazy, this is a fact. So, how do we change fact? How and when will I have the determination to change the fact that I am lazy? Somebody please tell me.
I need to change! I want to change! I have to change!
So please, change!
Although I know this is quite impossible as I am lazy.

Through My Window

Through My Window
Don’t want much, I just want everything
Thought that I could, do almost anything
One step in front of the other
Thought that I could do it alone
In the blink of an eye, it's just another day
Telling me why, I'll find another way
Got this feeling, got me reeling
I can almost start believing

Now there's me and you
And we are not alone
You and me
We are together now
Through my window, I can see there's
More than you and more than me
Me and you
And we are not alone
Different view
We are together now
Through my window, I can see
Our wildest dreams could be so real

I see a spark, it starts a fire
Is this the one worth waiting for?
Thought that I could do it without you
Can’t exist like this anymore

Now there's me and you
And we are not alone
You and me
We are together now
Through my window, I can see there's
More than you and more than me
Now there’s me and you, you and me
We are not alone and we are together
Through my window I can see
Our wildest dreams could be so real

This is is written by someone who is unidentified.
For the song and more information, log on to:
www.everyoneconnects.net

There goes my ESL Paper

Sigh!
There goes my ESL Paper.. down the drain..
sob..
Well, whatever, there's no turning back now, what is gone, is gone..
Have to work harder for the other subjects..
Hoping that I will have the will to do so..
Haha..

1 paper down...

Haha.. Just finish my ESL Paper 1 then rush to Queensbay to celebrate..
haha.. Well, I will study tomorrow, so today is relax day.
Haha. Anyway, just want to drop by and update as I haven't done that in weeks.
Kakaz..
Hoping all the papers will be as easy as today.
Kakaz..

花火

歌名:花火
歌手:丁当(feat.五月天阿信)
作词:阿信/作曲:阿信/编曲:严爵

无所谓短暂 无所谓永久
无所谓快乐会紧接着伤痛
无所谓挥霍 无所谓冲动
只要能够曾经感动
写一句短诗 写一部小说
只要一秒精彩就能够隽永
写一种回忆 无论过多久
我都能够微笑泪流

漫长人生原本像是沙漠
却在你的脚下长出绿洲
命运结束了沉默
夜空炸开了花朵
我们很有默契一起抬起了头
天空 正绽放无数花火
短暂美丽的花火
没有空去想 明天以后
如果 爱情是一场花火
一闪即逝的花火
我也要去追求

什麽是折磨 什麽是享受
在爱里折磨 我都会享受
什麽是付出 什麽是收获
什麽飞蛾总是扑火
谁算是贫穷 谁算是富有
谁打翻钻石 在夜空挥霍
谁改变了我 让我终於能
摆脱平凡的那个我
天空 正绽放无数花火
短暂美丽的花火
火光下和你 紧紧相拥
如果 爱情是一场花火
一闪即逝的花火
我也要去追求
我们还有多少的时间能蹉跎
我们还有多少的时间能相拥
还能等多久 还能爱多久
还能够让花火 灼热灿烂多久