Circle

Well, well, well, why did I use "circle" as the title of this post?
Of course, by definition, a circle is a shape where there are no vertex. (this is according to me, I am not sure if it is accurate definition of circle.)

But that is not the reason why I chose it, of course I won't write a blog just because of a shape. My language is not that good until I can do that yet. So, enough with the crap, the reason is because I think it is ironic how things work out. Just like a circle, you will be doing things that happened to you. Or something like that, let me explain.

So, it has been around 3months since I am in Sydney. Before coming here, I got the attitude of "ya, it's okay, I don't worry, so you don't need to worry as well" This is because my aunts and cousins were very worried and always remind me of this and that. I was like "ya ya, I know I know. Okay Okay." I don't know why they are so worried and tell me so many things to be careful of and stuff..

But, as I said, ironically, now the same things had happened to me. I found out that my cousin and sister are going to study in UTAR in Kampar. Since this is the first time that two girls leave home, so I was like remember to bring this, be careful of that, check this and so on to them. I did not know why I said all that to them also but it just seems the right thing to do.

I msn with them when I told them all those stuff. So when I was typing, I was "Oh My! I am doing what my cousin did" and I was laughing while typing. I just can't believe how ironic life is. It really is like a circle, I never thought I will do the worrying and yet I did. Haha.

Okay, I think you might be bored with my writing thus I am ending this.
Well, maybe because I forgotten what else to write. Haha. Well, this post waas schedule on the 19th and I postpone it to today because of my stupid assignment which I really hope is good enough so that I can pass the course. I have no intention of repeating that stupid course any time soon.

So, this is the end of this post as I need to get my rest now. Thanks for reading.

Affected

Well, first thing first, I have a report due tomorrow which I have not finish it yet but because this incident happened so quickly I had to post this to release myself from that feeling so that I can concentrate back on my report.

Two friends of mine who are living together in a foreign country had a fight. I do not know what are they fighting about as both parties did not tell me and I think I am in no position to ask any one of them. Since they are not willing to tell anyone yet, then I think is best to not intervene yet. So, here I am, affected by their temporary ruin friendship.

I do not know why I feel so affected by this. I seen quarrels and fights everywhere, but this time it seems more serious. Maybe my thinking has change and now I feel more? I do not know the reason but it is getting in the way of me and my finished report. So, I need a quick method to throw it out of my mind and focus on the report. Thus, here I am, writing this all out without planning. I thought my next post here would be of something else and I already had an idea written down and I will write it when I finish my report. But, who knows that this incident who arise and gosh I just feel like posting this first.

I think I feel affected by how complex humans are. Humans with the blessing of Gods have the intelligences that no other beings have. But now kind of thinking of it, is it a blessing? I think I am not qualified enough to comment on that and I leave that part to those who are interested and qualified to explore. But, just to think about it, just ask this question to yourself.

"Who make the most damage in this world?"
"Who kill the most being in this world?"
"Who kill just for the sake of killing?"

I am currently short of other questions but I think temporary these will have to do. So, I believe you have the answers and thus I question, "Why?"
This I believe is a stupid question where no one has the correct answer, thus this concluded that I am stupid. Yes, I am. This is why I feel so affected by things that do not even concerned me. Now, I think it is a problem for me, or is it not?

Okay, enough with the stupidity. I need to get back to my report now. Felling slightly better now. Hoping that I can finish my report in time.
All the BEST to me..

我落泪。情绪零碎

地上断了翅的蝶 不像自由地蔓延
爱原来更心碎 都可以更细节
田野风绕过几条街 秋天收获了满地的落叶
于是又一整夜 感情的句子都枯萎 凋谢
我不想再写 随手撕下这一页
原来是跟离别 可以没有结尾
焦 距后悔的跟着写 于是我把诗折叠
有几重感觉 挑一束白玫瑰 你将爱退回
我不落泪 忍住感觉
分手在起风这个季节
哭久 了会累 也只是别人的以为
冷的咖啡 我清醒着 一再续杯
我落泪 情绪零碎
你的世界一幕幕纷飞
门外的蔷薇 带刺伤人的很直接
过去被翻阅 结局满天的风雪
我不想写 随手撕下这一页

This song is from Jay Chou's newest album... I like this song among his new songs... Don't know why I like this song.. I just do.. Hehe..
Okay, I am going for my bath now and I will return to write a post or maybe I won't. This is because I need to rush a report that is due this Friday and that report is 2500 words which I don't even know what to write about.. God BLESS Me..

What is it?

Everyone had the same amount of it...
Most people says it is not enough...
Yet some people says they have too much...

So,
How can the same thing be different?
Why can the same thing be different?
The answer,
Because everyone is different...
Because everyone is unique...

Everyone is racing with it...
Most people try as hard as they can...
Yet no one can catch up with it...
It always stays ahead of everyone...

You want to control it...
I want to control it...
But no one get to be it's master...

It doesn't have legs...
It doesn't have life...
But it moves without slowing down...

It is here...
It is there...
Where is it?
Who can tell?

You can't see it...
You can't touch it...
But you always know...
Oh Yes you do...
That it is there...


So,
How do you use it?
Which is the best?
You and Me can tell...
But who can really do it?

Night + Cold Wind + Ice-Cream

Haha. Yes, I did that. It was night time, or to be more precise is almost midnight, and the wind was blowing and some might even feel cold with the wind and yet I had ice-cream in shorts and T-shirt.

Well, the night started off with a dinner in the city with my housemate, Jonathan and his friends which I know where 2 of them are celebrating their birthday on 1st and 2nd of May, Justin and Xiao Yun. So, they had dinner in a place where it is near the cinema, but I didn't because I had a late lunch. Thus, after the meal we went to the cinema to watch Iron Man 2, and the ticket cost me $20. GOD!! Expensive!!!! I am never going to watch a movie that expensive ever again!! Haha. So, after the movie, they decided to go for ice-cream, and we did.

So, it was around 11.30pm and there we are, eating ice-cream in the night with the cold breeze blowing every second it had the chance. I was basically shivering as it was too cold and I had only a T-shirt and shorts on. So, why didn't I wear a jacket? Well, this is because I want to get use to the weather here to prepare myself for winter. Thus, I was shivering while eating ice-cream. COOL. haha..

The weather here now is quite cold already, and the bad thing is it isn't winter yet. It is just nearing end of autumn and thus this means it will get colder during winter!! Not sure if I am prepared for that kind of weather.. But, I will have to! Haha.

Okay, This is all for now. I need to get back to my Calculus or I might just merely pass my test again. All the BEST for me! and of course to all those reading this. haha..

Someone MOTIVATE me!!!

Oh GOD!! I have a Calculus Test on Monday and an Economics Test on Tuesday, yet I haven;t even started studying yet. SHIT!! What am I doing?? Why haven't I started revising? Well, I just don't have that mood, or more precisely is that I had lost the mood of studying a long time ago and now I am in the process of finding it back. I need IT to COME BACK!! I need it! I need to!!

What can I say? I adopted this kind of lifestyle since I was From3 so it will take some time to search back that kind of feeling. I always wanted good marks but I never work hard for it. Why? I don't know. I always promise myself that I will study but then I will end up doing something else. Why? Why? Why? Maybe it is my newly found (but not so new anymore) attitude of happy-go-lucky. I always thought everything will just turn out fine but I was constantly proven wrong! Yet, little effort had been made to change this not-so-good attitude of mine, at least it is not good in terms of study.

So, what is the point of writing this? I guess is to make a note to myself that I wanted to study and I NEED to study! Or else i might just pack my bags and go back to Malaysia and study which will save a lot of money. So, please remember to STUDY!!!

Okay, I think it is enough. I think I really need to start limit myself on playing and thus transfer my time to STUDY!! And, by the way, I haven't even mention anything that is related to my title. Anyone who read this can feel free to remind me of studying. Besides, if anyone is thinking of coming to University of New South Wales please do and then motivate me to study every single minute. Thanks.

Hoping for the BEST!!